I’m tired

Gosh, if you don’t have my personal account on Facebook then you may not be privy to the fact that I have been so invested in the politics that have been going on in Victoria, it’s borderline obsessive.

These last few weeks in isolation have been tough on my mind.

My shadow thoughts decided to take the drivers seat this week on social media, and it hasn’t been pretty.

I’ve been rampant on social media, showcasing my utter disgust.

I even got to the point that I was seeking out Daniel Andrews press conference to bloody watch it… something I don’t normally do and something I’ve told others to stop doing 🤯

I’ve been posting memes of how much I despise the Victorian premier, I’ve even gone to the extent to criticise people for liking him.

To put it simply, I’ve just been fuelling the fire of fires.

Not because I’m wanting to troll, but because I’m disheartened that we are still in this position of lockdown & because I know how many people are actually suffering because of these mistakes the government refuses to take accountability for.

Me included. I’m suffering. I’m over it.

I’ve really struggled to keep my opinions to myself and I’ve really struggled to centre myself throughout this time.

It’s been exhausting and I’m tired.

I’m tired of isolation and everything it brings.

I’m tired of not living my normal life.

I’m tired of trying to anticipate the next move the state government decides to take.

I’m tired for feeling invested in the outcomes.

I’m tired of what is happening in this world.

And you know what, I’m allowed to feel this way.

But what I won’t allow myself to do is to sit with these feelings for to long for it to take over my daily thoughts.

Even though I advocate for peace, love, harmony and talk about energy.

I’m not a super human who flys over these emotions or conscious feelings.

We have to strike balance, something that can be very hard to do in such a chaotic time.

I have to acknowledge these feelings, I have to feel them in order to transcend them.

Once acknowledged I have to hand them over to the light and dissipate them.

We are all collectively going through so many emotions and for some, its bringing us together and others apart. But we will get through this eventually.

It’s hard to see this light at the end of the tunnel but I’m optimistic that we will get there.

For those for or against what’s happening in the politics of Victoria just know, no one is right and no one is wrong.

Everyone is hurting in some way or another, but this is the perfect time to reflect and to gain perspective for our future.

With love

Felicia

Xxoo