Neutrality

I’ve recently had a light bulb moment and realised that I’ve slowly and progressively been consciously working through my shadow work since my mother passed.

I haven’t wanted to recycle a lot of my parents or childhood traumas, I’ve wanted to break free from those and the only way was going inwards.

When I travel back through the pages of my life I feel in my heart that I had only myself to find and navigate my own life and using my grief was the catalyst of change.

This has been a 12-year process and has accelerated since I started to honour my life purpose over the last two years.

I’ve gone through deep phases of reflection.

Different people, situations and environments have allowed me to experience life from all different angles.

Talking about the not so great moments that I have had to deeply reflect on in the last few weeks.

I’ve had to accept and hold myself accountable for everything.

I’m starting to understand and acknowledge my judgements about myself and others.

There were times where I was ultimately the demise of my destruction and there were times where others had played an integral part and I was forcibly pushed onto a lonely, secluded path.

And in those moments of my despair, whether isolated from another or my undoing, I found in those moments, myself.

Doing this work has made me understand our human process.

It has made me understand the bigger picture and always try to stay neutral.

When listening to another’s life situation or holding space to hear their problem, I’m choosing to stand in the space of neutrality because ultimately we have been there ourselves in some shape or form.

People are experiencing life through their lens.

Let them, it’s their journey. Even if you don’t agree with it.

How they choose to navigate their life is on them.

If this journey has taught me anything, it’s that nurturing myself and expressing myself whichever way I choose and accepting that wholeheartedly and without judgement, sets me free and only allows me to expand more and more.

If you’re doing the work, keep going, keep expanding, keep trying new things to keep you overcoming your fears, keep riding the waves, with each breakthrough comes an amazing sense of your true self.

The work is ever ongoing and ever-changing, with a humble heart anything is possible.

With love,

Felicia ✨