Ouch!

Hello friends,

This week has been quite a mental struggle for me.

I’ve been struggling with my ego-mind and trying to balance out my heart connections with our universal energy and let me tell you if could throw a shovel at this challenges head, I would.

To put the icing on the cake, my children have been sick. So it’s been one sleep-deprived, emotional royal shit show. Which doesn’t help the process.

It always seems when I’m shedding what no longer serves me, life feels like it erupts.

I equally get amazing messages but I have to endure the pain behind them.

It is exhausting.

I really try embracing my duality, but I’m human and I still get triggered and it’s not always easy to be like “Hey, I’m feeling this pain, it’s all good, it’s teaching me what I need ”.

No, it’s more like:

“I’m feeling this pain, why am I feel I feeling this way, I shouldn’t be feeling this way, l just want to move past it, get over it, they are making you feel this way because they don’t care about you, they don’t want you in their life, I feel invisible to those that say they care, what did I do wrong, why am I like this, why are they like this.”

I occasionally become overly critical of myself and others and when I do this, I get stuck in the emotional depths of my mind and I experience looping negative thoughts.

It’s not a great place to be and it can be a really hard place to get out of.

But I will say this, after these really hard times I usually have an amazing breakthrough.

During these times, it’s forces me to speak to those that understand me and love me and it helps create new perspectives on the situations that are hindering me, which then creates new thought patterns and raises my energetic vibration.

So, if you like me and are experiencing your pain and others pain, it will pass, it will get better.

We will get to calmer waters soon enough.

In the meantime, let the darkness surface, feel the intensity and ride the wave the best way you can.

Cry, read, walk, talk, dance, run.

A reminder to be gentle with yourself.

It was a long one, but a necessary one.

Lots of love,

Felicia

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