Creeping out of my cocoon

Hey friends,

It feels like forever since I’ve managed to get in a zone to write.

Today, I’m sharing news that I’m pregnant with my third child and we have been blessed with a baby girl.

The last few months have been wild, not only trying to process the world events and what’s happening in my country and state but the ALL DAY sickness has been absolutely next level.

Who knew having a girl would feel so different and in a “virus” environment 😅

I’ve never felt so physically and mentally challenged.

And I‘m challenged ALOT.

What I believe that’s really tipped me over the edge, is the Melbourne lock down and not knowing when it’s going to end and that I’m indoors and almost on social media every second I get trying to relieve myself of this emptiness feeling that this lockdown brings for me and hoping the government has made changes in some sort of way.

It never does though, it just gets a worse and worse.

In fact just speaking to people has also been a challenge because everybody is so caught up with all of it and trying to convince of the one way out solution, or being opposed to the ideas and no one is really asking how people are truly feeling.

If feels like everyone is a hot MESS on either side of the perceiving spectrum.

Its becoming intense.

I’ve sat at home with my kids, crying, depressed and simply just fed up.

I float in and out of moods and have done my best trying to use certain techniques to shift my thoughts and its a challenge trying to centre.

At the end of the day, I have hour long showers putting myself back together preparing myself for the next day and telling myself that it will get better and knowing I’m pregnant everything feels so much more sensitive.

Though, as the pregnancy weeks have moved on, the pregnancy sickness is starting to ease.

We are heading into spring and we’ve had a few days of sunshine here and there.

On the sunny days, I cope a little better. We are outside breathing in the sunshine and trying to make the best out of the situation.

I never thought being pregnant in this climate would be such a difficult task, but I’m optimistic I will get ahead of this and truly start this blessed journey the way it should.

Here’s to keeping it together as best we can and supporting one another in times of absolute disarray through no fault of our own.

Fe ✨