As you may already be aware, yesterday afternoon full moon arrived and gosh she really turned the frequency up over the last 3 days.
I struggled big time energetically and physically in the lead up to this full moon, it felt like my third eye was going to burst open and the immense pressure within my forehead was almost debilitating.
I haven’t felt like that in a while.
It also brought up some personal triggers of abandonment and loneliness, something I really worked through during the year but this time it felt like the closing of the entire chapter and seeing where I truly stood in all of it.
To move through this, I felt called to be with like-minded people and to feel nurtured and valued.
On a whim I contacted Alisha from Cosmic Gateway and Ana from Vitraya and asked if there were any spots available in their Sacred Cacao Ceremony for the Gemini full moon.
To my delight, there had been a cancellation and I was able to be slotted in.
After spending the afternoon with my Gorgoues 99 year old grandmother, uncle and siblings, I drove to Emerald and felt a tad stressed, because you know “Nav Man” decided to take me through the city but as soon as I started driving through the roads that were encapsulated by the trees, I started to come back into myself and preparing internally for the ceremony and played my mum’s music playlist for some comfort.
I finally arrived in Emerald and was greeted by the amazing soul sisters Ana and Alisha.
The hugs I most definitely needed, thank you ladies 💖
Being pregnant, I only did half a dose and Ana packaged the other half for me to take home…. (A little surprise for my own ritual when the solstice arrives)
Sitting in circle, I felt honoured and full of gratitude.
Grateful that I made the hour journey and grateful I was surrounded by others that were there for their own personal journeys too.
We were gifted with a beautiful solidite crystal, which was used as an anchor and captured the energy within my sacred cacao journey.
For those that have done a cacao ceremony, you’ll know that once ingested pure love from the mother herself seeps through almost instantly, whether you you feel it or not.
As I laid on my left side with my crystal on my left palm, I closed my eyes and felt my body melt into the earth.
For the first time in a while, my body was completely relaxed.
Even though my visions were disorientated and obsecured within the start of the meditation, I completely surrendered and collectively my consciousness and the sacred cacao went to work.
I was called to lay on my back and place the solidite crystal on the centre of my belly.
Within those moments of placing the crystal on my belly, It was made very clear that my child growing within me requested this journey energetically and we were greeted with an ancestral audience so bright that I couldn’t help but shed tears.
Her kicks and nudges were that of pure excitement.
It felt as if my daughter was showing me exactly who I’ve always had supporting me and that l was so loved, valued and that we are never truly alone.
And the message was to stop doubting their existence, they are here and are working with me, even in the days I think they are absent.
It was a very special experience.
Being a Gemini Moon, we are known for having intense emotions and nothing is left unscathed within our emotional waters.
Everything is absolutely felt, the duality can almost be overwhelming but once balanced, gives gifts and knowledge that keep giving.
This Gemini full moon placed at the end of year proved that notion to me and what a perfect time to do it, after the year we have all had.
I’m grateful to have connected with people who held the space I was seeking and receiving the love from the sacred cacao.
I will now step into the new year, renewed, refreshed and ready for the next amazing chapter of my journey.
Welcoming this amazing child and many other wonderful and delightful begininngs
With so much gratitude
Felicia ✨
The Woman X Collective 