As I continue to etch closer into my aligned self on the daily at my own pace.

I’m noticing more shadows then ever before.

I’ve been learning to be the kindness and love that others and myself need me to be.

We are not always our shadows, we all have our moments though.

The feelings lately for me have been really unnerving and my dream space has been a little disturbing.

But I’ve had to allow them to surface, to be cleared away and for more light to enter my energetic system.

It actually feels terrifying, but I know it needs to happen.

I’ve felt frightened about this new space, this new journey that I’m on, mainly because of my ancestral conditioning and knowingly being the “cycle breaker” in my line but also because some of the things/ people/ myself that were a big part of my life are now really at a far distance and that makes me feel nervous.

Because I’m in new waters.

What I’ve observed in others is the feeling that they are disjointed, scrambling to this illusion of some finish line and allowing the ego first place, saying “I got here first, therefore I’m the more enlightened or superior” in whatever form that shows up for them.

I’ve been wondering when will the state of comparison ever really dissipate for us as a people?

Can’t we congratulate them on every level that they meet, no matter what level you may be on?

When will we truly understand that everyone has their own uniqueness and even though we are the same beings, finding our enlightment in many of the same ways and are one.

That we all offer something very different and each person will receive it in a different way.

Everybody has their own energetic imprint in this world, none better than the other.

My journey has never been a rushed process, I never really knew what my purpose was until the last few years, but the more space I hold myself, the quicker I receive the gifts of it.

Every person has something really beautiful to offer and this is what we should all be focusing on.

What is right for one may not be received the same for another, it doesn’t mean it’s bad, it just means you haven’t been met with the energy that you need at that specific time.

We all evolve at our own pace and if we can all learn to be encouraging, supportive And nurturing no matter what level of life we are in, we will begin to see the change we so desperately want to see in the world.

More love, less ego.

Fe xx

Hey family,

Thought I’d just drop a few lines amongst this busy life I lead.

Today is the June Solstice, the time in which we step into the second part the year.

It’s chance to reflect on the past 6 months as a whole and to set our intentions for the rest of the year moving forward.

Since having Ella and moving house, it’s been a whirlwind of change.

As expected, I’ve felt overwhelm, fatigue and swept off my feet.

Though, as I start to really settle into my role as a mum of 3, my new environment and the energies surrounding me.

I’ve been witnessing more parts of myself that are falling away and also witnessing my faith in implementing the new ✨

At times, I’ve been going through phases of grief, of what once was and the transition of who I am now. And instead of resisting the feelings, I’ve allowed them to surface, and move through my body.

It’s been a challenge facing it all and learning to see different perspectives. But I know doing this work is only giving me more doors to open and more opportunities of alignment.

Today I thought I’d capture a time lapse of my mid morning.

These moments of writing in my journal, giving myself reiki, listening to my inner thoughts, allowing my self to centre and setting my intentions is my saving grace.

Without doing this, I feel I would remain lost in a sea of overwhelm and emotions.

If you feel like something needs to change, give yourself the time to be with yourself, allow the feelings to surface and breath or write through them. Even if it’s for 5 Mins.

If I can do this with cranky 4 month old, you can find the time to do this for you too!

Happy June Solstice family and I hope that you get the time to set your desired intentions for the coming months ahead 💖

Love Fe x

Hey there friends 👋

It’s been a while since I last posted and I thought now the dust has finally settled I’d catch you all up. 

A few months back, I did a write up on some big changes coming up for myself. 

I didn’t share the details because I was in the process of allowing the energy to do the work and I knew 2022 was going to be a big year for me and I didn’t want anything to distract parts of the unfolding. 

November last year we put our first home on the market as we had outgrown it and we wanted to find a place where we could raise our children in a community that aligned with our values. 

Plus we had some little desired boxes we wanted to fill when it came to the next house. 

It was really intense doing this because I was 7 months pregnant, but I felt the energy I was working with at the time was really pushing me to do this move because it was a time for growth and it was asking us to step into the unknown and to trust it. 

We were also going through some rough times emotionally and had relationship breakdowns happening around us, that caused us almost to derail our focus. 

It felt like we were in a pressure cooker of emotion, it’s as if we were being taught how to deal with these emotions and clearing pathways whilst also balancing our future prospects. 

A dual effect if you will, balancing the dark with the light.

I worked really hard energetically, mentally and physically (growing a child within my body) through this time and I was exhausted but I was so focused on alignment and I trusted everything would work out. 

Let’s not forget, I had a few healings during this time to help re centre when I felt like I was moving off course. 

Now, because of aligning with the energy I was working with and allowing the process of what will be, will be.. the outcomes of selling our house and buying our new home, plus “moving into the new home” happened within 3 – 5 weeks… I also gave birth to Ella in this time. 

IT was absolute CHAOS but a beautiful calm energy flowed with this Chaos. 

It was a week by week play book. 

Don’t get me wrong, there was an array of emotions and uncertainties we endured but our faith was intact. 

The sale of our house was probably the most stressful out of this journey, I didn’t do much research on agents and we had a really shit experience but we learnt a lot from that lesson and I guess because of the timing and how things worked out with them, we aligned with our new home and it happened to be vacant so we jumped on the opportunity to move straight in.  🤪

The whole “things happen for a reason” really started to ring true and because I trusted in what I was putting out energetically, I knew I was helping the magic in all of this. 

So here we are, in our new home… settling in and preparing for the next unfolding. 

If this journey has taught me anything, it’s that we are so capable of creating our dreams when we simply trust and allow to naturally align with it. 

Also, a great deal of gratitude, love & energetic support… is what makes the journey so much more accelerated and bearable. 

There is a distinction between forcing it and just letting the natural  flow of things just happen & I’m glad I allowed and flowed with the latter. 

I’m full of gratitude and love 💗 

Fe ✨

Since they day I found out I was pregnant with our daughter, I knew I was being gifted from the universe.

It’s as if I’d been reconnected to parts of myself that were once lost.

On Sunday the 27th of February, Ella decided it was time she showed herself to the world arriving 10 days early from her due date.

And just as she treated me in pregnancy, she gave me the best birthing experience I could have asked for.

Having gone through a semi traumatic birth with my first, to what felt like a shock and the quickest birth on earth with my second, Ella was kind and let me take control this time.

My contractions started at 5:38AM on the Sunday morning, they were 2 – 3 minutes apart and I was dilating fast, but I was in total control, the breathwork I’ve been working on, over the last two years, certainly assisted throughout the whole experience.

My sister arrived within 20 mins of calling to look after our boys and Lucas and I made our way to the hospital.

There was no traffic, it took us 5 mins to get the hospital.

Everything was flowing in good steed.

Once we arrived, they sent us through and we did the RAT test and found I was 5cm dilated.

I asked the nurse if it was possible to have a room with a bath and to see if I could be assisted with a water birth.

This was something that wasn’t planned for but I just felt like it was going to happen and I just needed to ask.

And I’m so thankful I did.

I was granted a room with a bath & away we went.

We were greeted to a beautiful midwife named Kylie, who was an absolute angel. Her vibe was so maternal and nurturing, and I believe is what set the tone for the rest of the time we were there.

The water itself, didn’t take away the pain of the contractions but it did take away their sharpness.

I stayed in the same position for the whole time, on my knees and holding tightly onto Lucas’s hand.

We played high frequency music and active labour began.

As I deep breathed my way through contractions, we cracked a joke about the animals I was sounding into.

I thought I sounded like a whale, Lucas said I went from sounding like a coyote then to a wolf howling into the night sky.

By the time I started to crown, the breath work went out the window for a minute and I screamed to the high heavens saying “ARGHHHH JESUS GET THIS BABY OUT”.

But with the last Breaths and the last pushes, I, myself, pulled her out of the water, closed her into my chest and said I DID IT! I DID IT! WE DID IT!

The look in Lucas’s eyes, is something I will never forget. It was awe, it was love, it was pure amazement. We made this together and we did this together.

Ella was born at 8:47am, only a few short hours later from arriving, but I was in total control this time.

The whole experience it’s self was intimate and so loving and in true Pisces style 🌊

Since her arrival, she has taken life like a duck to water, she has everyone smitten just like I knew she would, and when you hold her, you know there is so much more to this little baby and she is here to lighten up this world.

She gave me strength in many ways that I didn’t know I truly had.

It was her that helped me to overcome the things I’ve emotionally endured and watched in others through the last 9 months.

From inside the womb, she would talk to me, she would warn me, it was like she asked me take deeper reflections of myself and we both were to navigate our existence together in a really loving way.

She didn’t want to come into a world that held a tonne of baggage, with a mother that didn’t know how to teach, transcend and release.

She has already taught me so many things.

Her middle name Marianna is an ode to my Mother Mary (Maria) and her Mother, my Grandmother whom is still living her best life at just over 100 years old, Annetta 💖

For without them, we wouldn’t exist in human form and our feminine ancestry will now continue down the line.

Our baby Ella is here & she’s a life force worth loving 🙏 🌸💖✨🙏

Hey friends,

It’s been huge couple weeks for me floating in waves of deep, deep emotion.

I honestly haven’t come up for air until today.

It was weird when all these emotions started to surface, my older brother came around, whom I see every so often and he brought with him a big box of photos.

Mostly photos of me growing up.

These last couple days, after I received a remote healing session.

I’ve looked at this particular photo, remembering what was going on in my life then and resonating with this little girl standing there whom felt the feelings I had been feeling over the last couple weeks.

Reflecting on this, I made it my duty to connect with my inner child (the little girl in the photo) whom couldn’t control what was going on around her then and give her the biggest cuddle and know that I, in this now moment would transcend this wound we have been carrying together and we will move forward together stronger, filled with unwavering love.

The universe will continue to keep on reminding me that this life is about shedding and healing old out dated parts of ourselves, not recycling patterns & most of all relearning.

To all of us, doing the inner work, not avoiding it’s truths and pushing through this chaos that is ourselves and our outer mirrors.

Leaning into our heart space and telling ourselves (especially our wounded parts) we are worthy of all the beautiful moments in life, is the most precious gift we can give ourselves.

We have absolutely got this and I’m walking this line with you.

By the way…. How is that stunning bowl cut 🙈

As I sit here with my son, feeling refreshed after a cold shower and a morning/ afternoon beach sesh, I’ve been scrolling through social media and I’m seeing people post about what they have learnt about themselves and what they are choosing to release and bring into 2022.

2021 has taught us ALL so much.

Both in outer environments and inner environments.

It honestly makes my heart sing, that so many of us have gone through such harsh times throughout this year and yet are still choosing to self-heal, self reflect and use optimism to continue shaping their realities going forward in a positive way.

I know in my bones this will keep getting stronger and “trendier” as we continue into the years ahead.

AND What better trend to start then doing the serious inner work on ones self in order to create our equilibrium in life.

There is no room for hiding anymore of our love for many of us.

My new year intention for everyone I know and that I don’t know and those that I’m yet to meet.

Is that I hope that you all get what your true heart desires.

That whatever it is your seeking, comes to you so effortlessly and that life shows you the magic energy within to achieve it.

2021 was a year of many lessons and blessings for me and I know this work will keep on continuing.

I was shown what balance is, how to use and feel compassion in the face of conflict & how to create and establish boundaries.

The level of my expansion was truly a gift.

If I’ve got any advice going forward is this:

Life is going to give challenges, it’s going to mess you up, turn you over, spank you on the arse and say “learn this now, listen to your inner guidance properly OR I’ll

continue to show up in different ways through different people, different situations and other challenges until you receive and grow from this experience ”.

The advice: SURRENDER with a compassionate and loving heart towards yourself. Unlearn the patterns and create new patterns.

You’ll go through the emotions, the tragedy, the chaos, but it will only be for a short time.

And from this you will expand, you will make room for more growth & the things you wish for will come to fruition.

Start creating your equilibrium now.

2022 will be a continuous receiving gift for many of us that choose to listen, take the time to heal and actually DO the inner work rather than preach it.

My love goes out to you all as we enter another glorious year to work on ourselves!

Lots and lots of love

Fe 💖✨

As you may already be aware, yesterday afternoon full moon arrived and gosh she really turned the frequency up over the last 3 days.

I struggled big time energetically and physically in the lead up to this full moon, it felt like my third eye was going to burst open and the immense pressure within my forehead was almost debilitating.

I haven’t felt like that in a while.

It also brought up some personal triggers of abandonment and loneliness, something I really worked through during the year but this time it felt like the closing of the entire chapter and seeing where I truly stood in all of it.

To move through this, I felt called to be with like-minded people and to feel nurtured and valued.

On a whim I contacted Alisha from Cosmic Gateway and Ana from Vitraya and asked if there were any spots available in their Sacred Cacao Ceremony for the Gemini full moon.

To my delight, there had been a cancellation and I was able to be slotted in.

After spending the afternoon with my Gorgoues 99 year old grandmother, uncle and siblings, I drove to Emerald and felt a tad stressed, because you know “Nav Man” decided to take me through the city but as soon as I started driving through the roads that were encapsulated by the trees, I started to come back into myself and preparing internally for the ceremony and played my mum’s music playlist for some comfort.

I finally arrived in Emerald and was greeted by the amazing soul sisters Ana and Alisha.

The hugs I most definitely needed, thank you ladies 💖

Being pregnant, I only did half a dose and Ana packaged the other half for me to take home…. (A little surprise for my own ritual when the solstice arrives)

Sitting in circle, I felt honoured and full of gratitude.

Grateful that I made the hour journey and grateful I was surrounded by others that were there for their own personal journeys too.

We were gifted with a beautiful solidite crystal, which was used as an anchor and captured the energy within my sacred cacao journey.

For those that have done a cacao ceremony, you’ll know that once ingested pure love from the mother herself seeps through almost instantly, whether you you feel it or not.

As I laid on my left side with my crystal on my left palm, I closed my eyes and felt my body melt into the earth.

For the first time in a while, my body was completely relaxed.

Even though my visions were disorientated and obsecured within the start of the meditation, I completely surrendered and collectively my consciousness and the sacred cacao went to work.

I was called to lay on my back and place the solidite crystal on the centre of my belly.

Within those moments of placing the crystal on my belly, It was made very clear that my child growing within me requested this journey energetically and we were greeted with an ancestral audience so bright that I couldn’t help but shed tears.

Her kicks and nudges were that of pure excitement.

It felt as if my daughter was showing me exactly who I’ve always had supporting me and that l was so loved, valued and that we are never truly alone.

And the message was to stop doubting their existence, they are here and are working with me, even in the days I think they are absent.

It was a very special experience.

Being a Gemini Moon, we are known for having intense emotions and nothing is left unscathed within our emotional waters.

Everything is absolutely felt, the duality can almost be overwhelming but once balanced, gives gifts and knowledge that keep giving.

This Gemini full moon placed at the end of year proved that notion to me and what a perfect time to do it, after the year we have all had.

I’m grateful to have connected with people who held the space I was seeking and receiving the love from the sacred cacao.

I will now step into the new year, renewed, refreshed and ready for the next amazing chapter of my journey.

Welcoming this amazing child and many other wonderful and delightful begininngs

With so much gratitude

Felicia ✨

Hello there friends,

The last couple of weeks have been an absolute whirlwind.

I have so much happening on my end and all the magic has been in the details.
I’ll catch you all up on it in the new year 💖

I thought to do a quick post about end of year reflecting and new year intention settings.

It’s always important to reflect on the year past, moments with yourself, people and environments.

It helps us to really check in with ourselves, assess what we need to let go of and what we want to bring into our future and creating mindfulness and comfortabllity around those areas.

Speaking from my experience this year brought to light many things about myself and my capabilities.

It was all about my own personal growth, reaching into my inner child, leaning into my heartspace, creating and setting boundaries, pursuing my hearts desires and preparing for another change in my family dynamic with bringing another light being into this world.

Besides all the challenges that were set in my path, I’ve achieved so much and I feel I combated all of it with a compassionate heart and learnt so much about myself that I never knew before.

I know in my heart that 2022 is going to continue on my inner growth timeline but with a few extra pivotal moments along the way 💖

So if you want to create some you time, and give space for reflection and intention setting, here is some guidance ✨

Start with creating an atmosphere of calm and sit with yourself.
Grab a journal and pen, your desired drink and write what it is you learnt about yourself this year and what you want to create in the year ahead.

Some examples could be that you:

1. Created boundaries
2. Identified what it feels like to lead with compassionate heart
3. Held space for those that needed it
4. Achieved a personal goal
5. Revived the connection to your inner child

Setting 2022 Intentions could be:

1. Immerse yourself daily with gratitude
2. Continue to nurture inner child aspects of self
3. Cultivate relationships that see your value
4. Continue to expand the heart space
5. Do all the things that bring genuine joy to your life

Don’t limit yourself to what you want to write, be open with yourself and let your vulnerability come out.

Even if after you’ve listed things, or before you’ve listed anything.

Know that it is safe for you to write and want to release burdens from your mind that are no longer serving you.

You’ll be surprised with how you feel when you let it all out on paper.

Lots of love
Felicia ✨

There’s something about having a partnership that sees all of you.

Not just what you think you want to see in each other.

The other side, the shadow side, the hurt, the pain, the trauma cycles, the generational behaviour, the self destruction, the reasonings behind actions.

I choose to see it all, without judgement.

It doesn’t mean I condone or want the behaviour in my life, But I choose to see it for what it is and hope to support and assist ways for that person to heal.

I’m committed in my relationships and respond in ways that allows all of this to come through, the good, the bad and the ugly.

I don’t ask to suppress it , cover it up or invalidate it.

Because I don’t expect that from myself.

I choose to hear it, feel it, learn from it, transcend it, let it go and give space for growth and eventually make decisions to better my responses, approaches and perspective.

Asking for truths within a relationship is reasonable and even though doing this is challenging because sometimes certain truths hurt, I’m committed to supporting my relationship with the authenticity it deserves.

It helps us grow. It helps us expand.

To see the whole picture, rather than just what I want to see or hear.

As my own mother would say “switch your blinkers off”. Have a look around.

Because of this frame of mind and what I have chosen to expand within myself and my relationships, for example, my relationship with my husband has never been so solid because of it.

It gets stronger, it creates stability and ultimately it reinforces trust.

Over the years through my healing experiences and since having my children, I’ve learnt how to navigate my relationship with my husband in a loving and compassionate way.

It taken time and certain challenges to achieve this but we got there.

I no longer see him for what his done in the past or try to preempt what I think his planning to do, I assess and ask questions and get him to authentically express himself when life feels unbalanced and off centre for both him or me.

I’m not here to stand in his way, I’m here to let him be himself, help guide him with compassion when he needs it and continue to watch him grow into the person I know he truly is.

And who he is, is a loving soul that only wants to be loved, heard and seen in return.

Like EVERY other being on this earth.

I choose to see all of it and there is nothing more loving than that.

With this knowledge and wisdom brings the ultimate authentic foundation to any relationship.

What are you choosing to see in your relationships?

Can you hold space for all of it?

Is it time to reflect on yourself and your environment/social circles/family dynamics/ love interest?

What are you pulling towards?

Peace or destruction?

Love or continued heart ache?

Have the courage to listen.

It might just help yourself heal and make better observations about yourself and how you see others and to help them heal too.

Happy Sunday ✨

Felicia

The last few days have been a little dreary.

If the looping thoughts start over, I know I need to acknowledge what’s happening on the inside and understand them.

A lot of uncertainty is hanging over my head and I feel the friction as I move through it, it’s murky, it’s tough, it’s sadness, it’s grief.

The sun has so many benefits and we can turn to its rays for instant feel-good vibes.

When I do little things like this for myself, I’m reminded of my worth, I’m reminded to be in the present, I’m reminded that things will flow as they need to and the best possible outcome will always be revealed.

I may not have a view of the ocean, a nature park or a city.

But I do have the sun, my glorious lemon tree, the birds chirping and the voices of my children playing outside.

There is no special gestures here other then a complete surrender to myself and trusting that whatever unfolds is for my highest good for me to move through life with ease.

What are you choosing to let to go of today?

If for a moment, let the sun aid you back to yourself and to remind you that you are worthy of self- love and the love that surrounds you.