Ella Marianna✨

Since they day I found out I was pregnant with our daughter, I knew I was being gifted from the universe.

It’s as if I’d been reconnected to parts of myself that were once lost.

On Sunday the 27th of February, Ella decided it was time she showed herself to the world arriving 10 days early from her due date.

And just as she treated me in pregnancy, she gave me the best birthing experience I could have asked for.

Having gone through a semi traumatic birth with my first, to what felt like a shock and the quickest birth on earth with my second, Ella was kind and let me take control this time.

My contractions started at 5:38AM on the Sunday morning, they were 2 – 3 minutes apart and I was dilating fast, but I was in total control, the breathwork I’ve been working on, over the last two years, certainly assisted throughout the whole experience.

My sister arrived within 20 mins of calling to look after our boys and Lucas and I made our way to the hospital.

There was no traffic, it took us 5 mins to get the hospital.

Everything was flowing in good steed.

Once we arrived, they sent us through and we did the RAT test and found I was 5cm dilated.

I asked the nurse if it was possible to have a room with a bath and to see if I could be assisted with a water birth.

This was something that wasn’t planned for but I just felt like it was going to happen and I just needed to ask.

And I’m so thankful I did.

I was granted a room with a bath & away we went.

We were greeted to a beautiful midwife named Kylie, who was an absolute angel. Her vibe was so maternal and nurturing, and I believe is what set the tone for the rest of the time we were there.

The water itself, didn’t take away the pain of the contractions but it did take away their sharpness.

I stayed in the same position for the whole time, on my knees and holding tightly onto Lucas’s hand.

We played high frequency music and active labour began.

As I deep breathed my way through contractions, we cracked a joke about the animals I was sounding into.

I thought I sounded like a whale, Lucas said I went from sounding like a coyote then to a wolf howling into the night sky.

By the time I started to crown, the breath work went out the window for a minute and I screamed to the high heavens saying “ARGHHHH JESUS GET THIS BABY OUT”.

But with the last Breaths and the last pushes, I, myself, pulled her out of the water, closed her into my chest and said I DID IT! I DID IT! WE DID IT!

The look in Lucas’s eyes, is something I will never forget. It was awe, it was love, it was pure amazement. We made this together and we did this together.

Ella was born at 8:47am, only a few short hours later from arriving, but I was in total control this time.

The whole experience it’s self was intimate and so loving and in true Pisces style 🌊

Since her arrival, she has taken life like a duck to water, she has everyone smitten just like I knew she would, and when you hold her, you know there is so much more to this little baby and she is here to lighten up this world.

She gave me strength in many ways that I didn’t know I truly had.

It was her that helped me to overcome the things I’ve emotionally endured and watched in others through the last 9 months.

From inside the womb, she would talk to me, she would warn me, it was like she asked me take deeper reflections of myself and we both were to navigate our existence together in a really loving way.

She didn’t want to come into a world that held a tonne of baggage, with a mother that didn’t know how to teach, transcend and release.

She has already taught me so many things.

Her middle name Marianna is an ode to my Mother Mary (Maria) and her Mother, my Grandmother whom is still living her best life at just over 100 years old, Annetta 💖

For without them, we wouldn’t exist in human form and our feminine ancestry will now continue down the line.

Our baby Ella is here & she’s a life force worth loving 🙏 🌸💖✨🙏