What the actual?

Life can be confusing can’t it?

The last two months for me have seriously made my head roll.

We all hold this expectation about how everything should be, how we should be as people, what we expect from others and sometimes it just can’t be done for all sorts of reasons.

And that is something I have become really familiar with.

And let’s be honest, stopping yourself from having expectations is HARD.

I’ve been everything from a distraught emotional mess, to an aligned enlightened being of the universe, to a sad and somber sooky lala, to a lighter refreshed human starting new beginnings, to then being physically sick and purging everything from my body.

It’s been an absolute mess of a roller coaster.

Reflecting on it, I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.

I’ve had two stints of food poisoning, the second I’m still recovering from.

My household for the 1st time had to deal with everyone being sick.

Something I’m really hopeful not to repeat because everyone sick in the household at the same time SUCKS.

Especially when you all don’t have the same sickness, we had the boys sick with a snotty cold, then US parents battling with the food poisoning. We felt so displaced and just completely not ourselves.

Thank the Lord we had my inlaws around and helping us out with the kids!

We love you guys heaps 🌸

With all this being said though, the good moments in the last 2 months have certainly succeeded in bringing back my flow and my purpose.

I’ve started a course that is aligned with my visions and moving me forward in a really strong way.

Once I get a little deeper into it, I look forward to sharing some of my insights along the way.

It’s been a long time coming and these last 2 months have taught me a lot about myself and others.

If I can give any advice if your having any trouble through these weird times, it’s easier if you drop judgement of yourself and others, let go of things that no longer serve you and just be yourself.

Be a loving human being. That’s what the world needs right now. Love.

Because that is what you are, that is what we all are. Love.

P.S this artwork came through when I was desperately seeking a comfort embrace for myself a week or so ago and she appeared.

You are as confident as you feel.

Hello there my friends,

Happy 1st Full Moon of 2021.

I always amaze myself with what comes up in my writing but the energies are strong and the synchronisations that are occurring are just showing me I’m on the right path.

So without further ado on this beautiful full moon in the sign of Leo, I’m writing about confidence.

Something I think we all aspire to have and be.

I’ll start off by saying that I always felt that I was a born a confident person.

It was written in the stars, I was born under the sun sign of Leo.

But as much as my stars align to this theory, I also believe it has alot to do with my family and the encouragement of having loving thoughts about myself.

I was fortunate enough to have had a very supportive and loving mother, who oozed confidence herself and lifted others to reach and see their confidence in themselves.

She gave me great examples in life about self love and how to spread it.

She honestly glowed in rooms.

Within this feeling of self love though, I also learnt to see the beauty in others.

Not once have I ever felt less than another

woman or the need to compete.

It was never a game I wish to indulge in.

If anything, I admire other women in the way they look, speak and behave.

But in the words of confidence.

Confidence is an internal monologue.

It’s not your ego.

It’s how high you hold your authentic self.

For a good few years I sometimes allowed the opinions of others determine my feelings about myself, it even ruled some of my friendships and relationships.

These words of others lead me to believe that I was what they said I was.

When really I was none of them.

It takes a lot of energy to snap out of those thoughts you choose to attach yourself to.

It’s so important that we as women start to detach ourselves from negative thoughts about self.

Whether it’s negative thoughts you think of about yourself or what others have said or are saying about you.

Choose to LET IT GO AND JUST BE YOU.

We are all beautifully unique in our own right.

We all have amazing qualities that deserve to be seen.

See today as a day of release.

Sit down with yourself and tell yourself that you are beautiful, that you are love, that you are kindness, you are all that you need to be.

Trust that no matter what direction you choose to take in life, that the lessons you learn are teaching you something about yourself that you are uncovering.

That you are healing.

This morning, I practised some mirror work. I looked in the mirror and into my eyes and remembered who I am.

I am this body, I am this soul.

I am beautiful, I am worthy and I submit to the love I have for myself and in turn the love I have for others.

So my loves, start today feeling like your worthy of self love and rest assured, your body, face and your words will beam a light so bright that nothing will be able to dim its spark.

From my heart to yours,

Felicia 💕

Mirror work thanks to @sistershanti

Ebs and flow

Last night whilst listening to some healing music and pouring my heart into this art piece, I felt so connected to love and trusted that with the ebs and flows of the universe we will always be connected the centre of our oneness.

Co creators of our destinys and authors of our own life and making our own choices.

Choosing to stand still or to move forward.

Choosing to take the time to heal or to ignore the wounds.

Choosing to love or choosing hate.

Your choice is a reflection of your inner self and innerstanding of self.

Everyday make the choice to love a little more, hate a little less and give what you can without it draining your essence.

I AM more powerful then you think, stronger then you believe and loving beyond measure.

YOU are more powerful then you think, stronger then you beileve and loving beyond measure.

Be kind to yourself and to others and trust in your divine love.

Love conquers all.

From my heart to yours
Fe 💕

Taking the time and ready to lead

Hello everyone,

I thought I’d drop a few lines to let you know how the worlds are shaping me at the moment.

I’m currently stuck in the house with my children who have picked up some good ol’ healthy viral bacteria from child care.

We have been bathing in Vicks from head to toe and the Euky bear vaporiser was put to work as of last Friday.

It’s been a snuffly ride these past couple days. My body aches and my glands are swollen but I’m mindfully ok.

I’ve been able to set some time aside to finish my online Christmas shopping and sneak in a few chats with those I love.

I made a batch of soup to last the week in hopes it will cure the sickness sooner rather than later.

My body has been going through so many physical adjustments with every energetic shift that has occurred since the start of the year, I feel like I’ve felt the physicality side of it all.

I’ve gone through nausea, the aches and pains, the headaches, the stomach issues… things I haven’t experienced in years.

I’m hoping this cold is the last ride of my deep healing process and once I’ve overcome this part my body will rejuvenate itself ready for the year ahead with stronger capabilities and straight alignments with my souls’ purpose.

Despite the worldly events, I have used this time for some deep reflection and a lot of processing to learn my self yet again.

This past month, I’ve learnt to understand and embrace my shadow thoughts and transcend them by being creative but also by showing myself compassion and love.

I have also done this with how I see others shadows.

I’ve shined a light and just filled it with love in hopes they start their healing process on those areas that surface for them.

I have learnt to truly embrace and stop hiding my inner knowledge.

No matter what it may look like to some.

I’m starting to feel more confident in every word I speak, with the knowingness of its truthfulness and alignments with my souls’ purpose and for our higher good.

I’m also still learning but also consciously stopping myself from engaging in negative talks with myself and others.

(Which is probably the hardest thing to switch off.)

I believe this will be the biggest shift of my December… finally being freed of judgements and in-turn freed of judging people for whatever beliefs they hold.

And most importantly I’m starting to embody this new me in this new earth.

I feel it, I’m in it and I’m ready to shapeshift it, into our eye seeing reality.

No matter how it is you see me or what you think my inner magic or thoughts are, just know I’m ok with that.

I am unafraid of your worst.

I am here regardless and I am here to help you if you ever need it.

Love always

Felicia

P.S this was a quick drawing of my processing of what I wrote today.

I tried out some intuitive drawing to go along with my intuitive writing 🌺

Connecting with my sacral and speaking my truth 🌀

My interpretation of all that is.

The overseeing galaxy, the sun, the moon the earth.

Since I can remember, I’ve been drawing flowers.

I’ve always found flowers the only thing I have ever been able to draw and been happy when finishing it.

It also gives me a calming effect when drawing them, like looking into a mandala.

Since stepping into my own creative drawing centre, I started out drawing things that I thought I wanted to draw but found it wasn’t that easy and I still have a lot of practice ahead of me.

Today whilst drinking my tea on me new deck, I decided to get the iPad out and draw what intuitively came to me.

I didn’t want it to be forced, I just wanted it to be easy and imperfect.

This is my result, it seems I sway into the psychedelic 2D art naturally maybe. I don’t know? Does it even matter?

But for an artist who knows the lingo, they could probably address it or categorise it better for me.

It’s not for everyone but it certainly is fun to draw.

It is my quick interpretation of All That Is, in my current now meditative state.

I’ve decided that even though this is my own personal sketch and not perfected or neat, I’m putting it out there because I still think she is beautiful.

Have a beautiful weekend my friends.

Be gentle on yourself and others always.

From your amateur drawing friend

Felicia xx

The beauty is in the process

Hello everyone!

It feels like forever since I last wrote anything, so I thought I’d drop a few lines to say hey and talk about life.

As you are all aware, I love to recap and tell you all about my amazing roller coaster of emotions throughout 2020.

The last couple of weeks have been, you guessed it “chaotic”.

I have gone through so many different emotions and I finally feel like I may be at the tethering end.

(I laughed writing that line, because you know and I know that is not the case and I’ve got much more learning to do)

ANYWAY, I have had moments of extreme sadness, grief, anger, resentment, joy, excitement, boredom, motivation, frustration etc etc etc.

Reflecting on the last few weeks, I’ve noticed through the extreme up and downs, the virtue has been balanced, amongst the dark days there have been many light days and I’m very thankful for that.

Despite the ever going emotional cycles of life, I’ve actually discovered a new creative streak & have invested some time into learning and pursuing these interests.

Things I thought I couldn’t do, I’m starting to do them.

I’ve noticed that my attitude has been the whole “ I’ve got nothing to loose and only to gain”.

It’s been a really positive experience.

Through this, I’ve taken on doing a lot more meditation but with diving deeper into my psyche, a lot more has surfaced that I hadn’t dealt with before.

Things that have stemmed from my childhood and also things that have relevance in my “now moments today”.

But as you know, I’m all about awareness of self and learning about myself to be a better version for myself and for my family and essential for the human being collective .

I’ve found a lot of beauty in this process, it’s been really hard but it’s definitely what needs to be done.

Here’s to a life long perspective of seeing the beauty in the process of self discovery and those weird icky moments!

Be soft on yourself today and be soft on others, you never know what another is going through unless you seek and ask.

Lots and lots of love

Felicia

Artist @luci_dami

Something a little different

Hi everyone,

I thought to let you know that I’m trying out a little side business doing empowering quotes, poetry & messages that I do intuitively when sitting in my sacred space.

I will be combining these messages of wisdom, love and light and collaborating the words with a beautiful illustration.

These in turn will be printed and can be popped into a frame, kept for ones self or of-course gifted if you felt the messages were strong for someone else.

I’ll be trying out a few first to see if anyone is resonating with them and if you feel they are for you, we can organise the actual print and send this out to you.

If we do well and the messages are resonating on a grander scale, I’ll create a shop link and post ones that have already been created as-well as fresh messages and visuals.

I’d like to thank you all for your support and again it is my first time doing this sort of thing and any constructive feed back is always taken on 💓

Thank you and looking forward to trying a new way of connecting with you through the use of love, words and visuals.

Felicia

#Thewomanxcollective

Sacred connection

I want to thank the amazing Roslyn for creating this piece for me.

I had been searching high and low for a hallway piece that I loved and no matter what I looked at, I just couldn’t find what I was looking for.

I wanted something that embodied connection, growth, love, female, male and the power of universe.

Something that represented my sacred connection within our household but incorporating artistic measures such as a mandala.

I know, so complex right lol

I put my thoughts out to Ros and without any hesitation she started working on my piece.

She brought ideas to me and incorporated them into the piece and it just blossomed from there.

We went back and fourth many, many times and even though I knew I was being a huge pain, she changed and adjusted things to compare without any fuss.

She just wanted me to love it & that to me says a lot.

I can’t wait to see it in the flesh and hang this beauty in my house.

I look forward to seeing what else this beautiful heart brings to her intuitive passion and indeed you should check her artwork out.

If you have a vision, Ros will help you put the vision into her art.

https://instagram.com/roslyn_donohue_art?igshid=mu2ln8yzw8p7

With much love

💓

I’m tired

Gosh, if you don’t have my personal account on Facebook then you may not be privy to the fact that I have been so invested in the politics that have been going on in Victoria, it’s borderline obsessive.

These last few weeks in isolation have been tough on my mind.

My shadow thoughts decided to take the drivers seat this week on social media, and it hasn’t been pretty.

I’ve been rampant on social media, showcasing my utter disgust.

I even got to the point that I was seeking out Daniel Andrews press conference to bloody watch it… something I don’t normally do and something I’ve told others to stop doing 🤯

I’ve been posting memes of how much I despise the Victorian premier, I’ve even gone to the extent to criticise people for liking him.

To put it simply, I’ve just been fuelling the fire of fires.

Not because I’m wanting to troll, but because I’m disheartened that we are still in this position of lockdown & because I know how many people are actually suffering because of these mistakes the government refuses to take accountability for.

Me included. I’m suffering. I’m over it.

I’ve really struggled to keep my opinions to myself and I’ve really struggled to centre myself throughout this time.

It’s been exhausting and I’m tired.

I’m tired of isolation and everything it brings.

I’m tired of not living my normal life.

I’m tired of trying to anticipate the next move the state government decides to take.

I’m tired for feeling invested in the outcomes.

I’m tired of what is happening in this world.

And you know what, I’m allowed to feel this way.

But what I won’t allow myself to do is to sit with these feelings for to long for it to take over my daily thoughts.

Even though I advocate for peace, love, harmony and talk about energy.

I’m not a super human who flys over these emotions or conscious feelings.

We have to strike balance, something that can be very hard to do in such a chaotic time.

I have to acknowledge these feelings, I have to feel them in order to transcend them.

Once acknowledged I have to hand them over to the light and dissipate them.

We are all collectively going through so many emotions and for some, its bringing us together and others apart. But we will get through this eventually.

It’s hard to see this light at the end of the tunnel but I’m optimistic that we will get there.

For those for or against what’s happening in the politics of Victoria just know, no one is right and no one is wrong.

Everyone is hurting in some way or another, but this is the perfect time to reflect and to gain perspective for our future.

With love

Felicia

Xxoo

Lessons

Happy Monday lovers 💓

I hope you are all well and having a great start to the week.

Today I thought I’d give you some insight into how I felt last week and what I learnt.

I had a very turbulent week energetically, I went through a whirlpool of emotions and my physical body paid the price.

For those that aren’t aware, we are currently in the midsts of some really big energetic shifts globally, I’ve mentioned before that the chaos in the world is getting louder but what’s happening to us on the inside is also mirroring these events on the outside.

For most of us, we could find ourselves really confused, going from one extreme emotion to the next, feeling tired, feeling energised, feeling sad then feeling completely happy and content.

Western Doctors would call this clinical
Depression and that isolation is the cause & some could possibly be suffering with this, but in my mind it’s the same thing.

The difference with us being in isolation is that we are in a channel of time where we can alter our minds to receive an abundance of love and to forgive ourselves really quickly.

We are being forced to work with ourselves internally.

The energies that are swirling within us are asking us to face our deepest thoughts and bring them to the surface for resolve and surrender ourselves to love.

Last week, I had a few moments of despair and indulged a little to much with the spirit of the alcohol.
Something I don’t always do and it brought up an array of different emotions I’ve secretly been dealing with.

Following that night, my body rejected anything I put into it. I actually felt like I purged everything out of my body.

It was a WEEK long hangover….

I honestly felt like I was being punished for what I did to myself, I went through so many emotions and had a really big emotional outburst, I felt like it wasn’t me.

After some deep reflection and trying to regain my centre, I found that it actually was me and it was something that came up out of fear and I wasn’t sure why at the time.

What the beneficial part of this encounter, was that I was able to hold this emotion, that feeling and actually deal with it and work with it to move it through my body and let it go.

It also made me realise that using alcohol was not the answer to make me feel good.

In my minds eye I was shown different perspectives and different interpretations of what I was feeling. It took a while to process and some things I’m still processing, but having these moments accelerated has been a phenomenal experience.

If you feel like you may be experiencing some really intense emotions/energetic experiences, it’s ok.

October is a really strong energetic month and will possible force you into submission and make you deal with these intense emotions/energies.

The beautiful thing about this is that the light beings of our universe are working in our favour to help us through these shifts.

You can connect with your source through meditation, sitting in silence, having a long shower or hot bath, walking in nature, doing exercise, writing in your journal, or talking with someone whom is energetically equiped to hold space for you.

If you feel like someone may not understand you, I would like to let you know my messenger inbox is always open and I can sit in and listen.

Remember, go easier on yourself and your light within yourself will always be on, all you have to do is choose to see it.

Love to you all 💓

Art by : Tessa Mythos